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Everyone has their issues, right? Well, one of mine is that I feel calmer when my kitchen is clean. If I can see the counters and the top of the table, if there are no toys to trip over or crumbs crunching under my bare feet, I will actually catch myself physically exhaling. A sigh of relief, so it seems.
This has been bothering me recently. Why do I care so much about a clean kitchen?
Then it occurred to me: if we're in between meals or are going out for dinner, a messy kitchen doesn't bother me as much. But if I can't find a clean/clear workspace to prepare a snack or fix lunch, I feel my chest tightening and my pulse quicken. It's weird, I know, but it's how I function.
I've been fighting this little problem of mine for years, but have decided to just embrace it and work around it. For instance, I make sure the kitchen is picked up before we head upstairs at night. That way, I'm not faced with a mountain of chores while we're racing to get Mike out the door for work in the morning. Accepting little changes like that (no matter how tired I am at night) has made it so much easier to just move on with my life instead of trying to "fix" myself in this area. I have bigger fish to fry...this is quirk that won't seem to disappear, so I'm not focusing on it as a weakness anymore.
And that's all I have to say about that.
This has been bothering me recently. Why do I care so much about a clean kitchen?
Then it occurred to me: if we're in between meals or are going out for dinner, a messy kitchen doesn't bother me as much. But if I can't find a clean/clear workspace to prepare a snack or fix lunch, I feel my chest tightening and my pulse quicken. It's weird, I know, but it's how I function.
I've been fighting this little problem of mine for years, but have decided to just embrace it and work around it. For instance, I make sure the kitchen is picked up before we head upstairs at night. That way, I'm not faced with a mountain of chores while we're racing to get Mike out the door for work in the morning. Accepting little changes like that (no matter how tired I am at night) has made it so much easier to just move on with my life instead of trying to "fix" myself in this area. I have bigger fish to fry...this is quirk that won't seem to disappear, so I'm not focusing on it as a weakness anymore.
And that's all I have to say about that.
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2 comments:
I feel the exact same way. Maybe it's part of the distratction issues with ADD, or something more important like just wanting to be content in any circumstance. For me, it's a whole lot easier to focus and breathe into the task at hand - even enjoy making lunch or cleaning up again - when the space is clean and I'm not creating more clutter my shoving stuff aside.
Good for you, Katie for accepting who you are and for figuring workable ways that help keep your home peaceful, for learning to be content!
Love you,
Mom
I am the same way. Nothing annoys me more than having to shimmy around couter items to make a meal.
I am really facing my demons since living with my parents this past year without my hubby. I usually make dinner and right after am dealing with baths and bedtime. My parents haven't been doing the dinner clean up (washing and putting away) so after and exhausting "single mom" day I don't want to come down and do dishes after putting kids to bed. So, guess what? I come down each morning to a pile of dirty dishes that need to be cleaned up before I can even attempt breakfast! It's maddening.
I can't wait to have my hubby here (in a month!) so that he can do the bed routine while I do the kitchen clean up and have it be all nice and tidy for the next day!
Can you tell that it's been bothering me?!?!?!? THanks for letting me vent! HA!
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